Monday, April 26, 2010
Roller Coaster
Well today was quite the day.. Lots of confrontations,accidents,tantrums, kids shutting down, tears etc. The thing is that there is a lot that we don't put on the blog. Even though the girls are great, there are lots of behaviors that are related to their experiences. We don't talk about these issues on the blog because they are personal. We have great days, or mornings and we might have terrible afternoons or evenings and every day is a roller coaster,just like any other family. We deal with some of the same issues as any other family except that we have only been a family for about a week and half. We also know that this is a transition time and that in the future they will probably be very different people than they are now. So I had a bit of a breakdown today. Doing so many jobs at the same time, and also try to translate and mediate seemed a bit much today. So I cried... I use to cry more, I don't as much anymore (Alex cries more than I do), but today the tears just came, and came. That is, I am the main communicator between the girls and Alex. I have to help the girls with almost everything,help teach discuss behaviors of the girls with Alex, cook, clean, and everything else. This is strange, but it always seems like this happens to me the day before a big day.. What's that all about?--MM
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Hang in there Mercedes!! Just this morning I was thinking about you and wondering HOW you're doing all this -- being the main communicator, doing so much laundry, keeping 4 growing girls from going bonkers in a small apartment AND not having any down time for yourself. It must be incredibly stressful, even if it's wonderful too. I know it's stressful and wonderful for Alex too! We're all on a roller coaster -- perhaps yours has higher peaks and lower dips than most people have. Just be glad the tears didn't come ON the big day!!! And know that you have many, many family members and friends who are in awe of your efforts and will be there to help out when you're back home. Love, Ginny
ReplyDeleteOh Mercedes, I'm so sorry you felt overwhelmed, but I'm also glad you got it out! Who wouldn't be overwhelmed in your shoes, especially? You are like "Wonder Woman" right now. I'm not sure I could do all that you are doing- I know not as well, anyway. I do know that I tend to be like you in that I hold it all in and then one day, out it comes, in droves! (ok, maybe not just "one" day- you'll have to ask Sam) I think it might just be part of being female.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Ginny- we are amazed at all you are doing- all 6 of you, actually- you're truly brave, compassionate, wonderful!
Hopefully today went beautifully and you can breathe a sigh of relief. Just know we're thinking of you and pulling for you all the way!
Lots of love to all,
Telia, Sam, and Sophie
You are doing such an amazing thing! All six of your lives have altered course significantly in the last couple of weeks and your journey together is bound to have lots of ups and downs - the stress of so much upon our shoulders is incredible - and you are incredibly talented, full of love and care and we know you can handle it. All of you are so brave to undertake this new direction. We're thinking of you and hope this day is smoother than the last, that tomorrow is brighter than today and that soon home will be in view for all of you. Love to all of you, Chris and Rick
ReplyDeleteFeeling overwhelmed.... It's so hard when you're feeling overwhelmed. Amazing, isn't it, that you can sometimes handle each thing as they come, and then other days, you just crumble? I've certainly felt that, although I've never felt YOUR version of that...I can only imagine. Just know that you WILL get through this (although it may seem hard to believe) and the third week in May WILL come (although I'm sure not soon enough). Love and a big x and o, Laura
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